I’m 42, I’ve Failed at Everything — and the World Is Burning

Let me get straight to the point:

I’ve failed. Over and over again. At pretty much everything.

I’ve tried to build something.  

I’ve tried to survive.  

I’ve tried to connect, belong, contribute.  

And I’ve fallen on my face more times than I can count.

Now I’m 42. Broke. Isolated. On the verge of losing what little I have left. And I’m still fucking trying — not because I believe it’s all going to work out, but because I’m too stubborn and too goddamn used to getting back up.

But let’s not ignore the **bigger backdrop** here — because it's impossible to talk about personal collapse without mentioning the **national** and **global** collapse happening right alongside it.

## Look Around

We are living in a country on the edge of a civil war.

White nationalist movements are gaining power.  

Basic human rights are being stripped away.  

The poor are being crushed while billionaires launch rockets and push crypto scams.  

Entire communities are being criminalized — for existing.  

Climate chaos is killing people in real time while corporations throw up solar panels and call it “green.”

And somehow, in the middle of this apocalyptic fever dream, people are still trying to “crush Q3 goals” and sell bullshit to each other on social media like it’s 2011.

WTF are we doing?

People are dying. People are *already* being targeted.  

And we’re watching history repeat itself like a slow-motion nightmare — fascism, genocide, collapse — while everyone argues about what color their brand palette should be.

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## Why I Still Try (Even If It’s Pointless)

I’m tired. Burnt out. Angry.  

And still, every day, I try to make something out of nothing.

Not because I think I’ll get rich.  

Not because I believe this country is going to “bounce back.”  

But because I don’t know how to stop fighting.

There is no redemption arc here.  

There’s just raw survival.  

Trying to live with some shred of dignity in a world designed to erase people like me — broke, burnt out, and not part of the “winning” class.

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## Maybe It’s All Shit

Maybe this planet deserves the asteroid.  

Maybe the aliens are right to stay away.  

Maybe humanity is just a self-devouring machine with good PR.

But as long as I’m still breathing, I’m going to try.  

Not because it’s noble.  

Because I have nothing else to lose.

If you feel the same way — if you’re sick of the lies, the cruelty, the fake smiles covering fascism — then know this:

You're not the crazy one.

You’re just awake.

And that’s enough to keep going, even if everything else is broken.

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*Posted by someone who sees the smoke, and still lights a match.*